Deep inside....

I'm not realy sure what i feel rite now

im not sure if i still love you or not

im not sure what to do and what to say

coz i knw i've changed

from a-z

i know i will hurt u damn much

for this sudden change

which actually happened long time ago

without you realizing it

back then...

i felt like you are everything that i wanted

we were meant to be together

but i changed...

for some reasons..

i changed....totally changed...

and the more i think of it

the more it seems like impossible

then i made the decision

eventhough it hurt me so well

that i don't actually sure bout my doing

but not wanting to hurt u more

with my action..

can't be back to the exact me...

i've changed..for good..

looking back to things that we shared

look so beautiful without me complaining

when deep inside it hurts like hell

keep it for the sake of our relationship

keep it 4 not wanting to make things bigger

keep everything in a small heart...

n when it comes into the last piece of the heart

it explode with feelings...

uneplainable...incomprehensible....inevitable...

That was when i started thinking...

it's no use...

being faithful when the other side is not..

taking care of someone when the other side is not..

hoping something that i can't get...

Love is afterall about honesty and sacrifice...

but do u actually care about it??

i'm trying to find that definition of love in you...

maybe yes...u did show some...but..its not something

that i hope for..

hoping you to change..

hoping you to see me just the way i am..

hoping you to accept me for good and for bad..

hoping you to understand me even if I do not say things out loud..

hoping you will never give up on me...

when i actually hope all those things come from you...

eventually...

I got it from someone else...

whom i never thought it would be..